Post by Flesh on Jan 11, 2013 20:55:55 GMT -5
To be honest I was devastated to see that this section of your forum was completely empty. Not only do I think YANA is an excellent idea, but I also thought people might actually benefit from this. Alas, that does not appear to be the case.....
Well, I'm here to tell you that's not entirely true. So, I shall tell you of my story.
I've never been a very happy person, well, apparently I was before I can remember so my parents tell me, but, that's besides the point. Always, throughout my life I have gone from periods of being somewhat content with my life to extended periods of utter despair. Through it all I persevered. Partially because I felt that it could be some form of punishment, or perhaps a trial by fire for great things to come, but mostly because I'm the type of guy who would rather go out of this world the way I came in; Screaming and covered in someone else's blood, in short, despite how ever badly I wanted to die, or simply did not want to live for that matter, I've never considered suicide an option.
About a year ago, I fell on to some hard times, emotionally at least, looking back it really wasn't anywhere nearly as bad as stuff that has happened to me before, but for some reason this blade struck me far deeper than any other had before and to be honest, I wasn't sure I could make it through this time.
Some months into my depression I stumbled across your page purely by chance, I don't even remember how, but what I do remember is that after only a few days following your page, I found myself constantly refreshing my news feed, with baited breath, waiting to see the next post you guys made, almost like a child waiting for Christmas.
I'm not sure how, I'm not sure why, perhaps it's because I saw a lot of similarities in the things you guys were posting and the way I both think, and view the world and that helped me to feel not so alone. Really though, it matters not. What does matter, is that before I knew it, I suddenly started to feel better, not a whole lot mind you, but for the first time in months I began to think that I could continue going with the way things were. It may not seem like much, but just that slight glimmer of hope, that slight change in the way I was thinking, opened up my door to recovery.
I won't say that I'm back to being content with my life, I won't say that my depression has completely gone away, but thanks to you guys, most likely without you even realizing it, each and every one of you helped to change my life and drag me from the hole I was wallowing in bit by bit and now I have finally managed to grasp the ledge with both hands, and can feel the strength to pull myself the rest of the way out slowly returning.
For this reason, I want to thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart, whether you intended to or not, you have each managed to continually brighten my days more and more and to this day, I still sit in front of my computer, constantly checking my news feed.
Please, never stop being who you all are. Never stop posting just because you feel as though you're not doing anything. You have all done more good for people than you may realize, and I will testify to that fact.
Well, I'm here to tell you that's not entirely true. So, I shall tell you of my story.
I've never been a very happy person, well, apparently I was before I can remember so my parents tell me, but, that's besides the point. Always, throughout my life I have gone from periods of being somewhat content with my life to extended periods of utter despair. Through it all I persevered. Partially because I felt that it could be some form of punishment, or perhaps a trial by fire for great things to come, but mostly because I'm the type of guy who would rather go out of this world the way I came in; Screaming and covered in someone else's blood, in short, despite how ever badly I wanted to die, or simply did not want to live for that matter, I've never considered suicide an option.
About a year ago, I fell on to some hard times, emotionally at least, looking back it really wasn't anywhere nearly as bad as stuff that has happened to me before, but for some reason this blade struck me far deeper than any other had before and to be honest, I wasn't sure I could make it through this time.
Some months into my depression I stumbled across your page purely by chance, I don't even remember how, but what I do remember is that after only a few days following your page, I found myself constantly refreshing my news feed, with baited breath, waiting to see the next post you guys made, almost like a child waiting for Christmas.
I'm not sure how, I'm not sure why, perhaps it's because I saw a lot of similarities in the things you guys were posting and the way I both think, and view the world and that helped me to feel not so alone. Really though, it matters not. What does matter, is that before I knew it, I suddenly started to feel better, not a whole lot mind you, but for the first time in months I began to think that I could continue going with the way things were. It may not seem like much, but just that slight glimmer of hope, that slight change in the way I was thinking, opened up my door to recovery.
I won't say that I'm back to being content with my life, I won't say that my depression has completely gone away, but thanks to you guys, most likely without you even realizing it, each and every one of you helped to change my life and drag me from the hole I was wallowing in bit by bit and now I have finally managed to grasp the ledge with both hands, and can feel the strength to pull myself the rest of the way out slowly returning.
For this reason, I want to thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart, whether you intended to or not, you have each managed to continually brighten my days more and more and to this day, I still sit in front of my computer, constantly checking my news feed.
Please, never stop being who you all are. Never stop posting just because you feel as though you're not doing anything. You have all done more good for people than you may realize, and I will testify to that fact.